I am hoping God's best, mercy, love, goodness, and fullness of joy to you this and all your days.
So ... if you didn't know I have two GINORMOUS tattoos on my forearms (...had to add some color to my personality at one point in life if you know what I mean - plus as far as reminder notes go...tattoos save on post-it notes in the long term).
WELL - I am finally getting my right arm finished today.
After today, both arms will be full and have some symmetry (I will work on symmetrizing my brain for my next undertaking).
(1) The tattoos will always represent to me Loving God (right arm):
Cloud, dove, and cross represent God - and underneath is written "Love" - because - God is love.
The open hands with pierce marks has a verse written in it Isaiah 49:15-16 which says: "Can a mother forget the baby at her breastThough she may forget,I will not forget you. See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands."
So God is saying that the love He has for us is greater than that even of a mother's for a child - which is the purest and strongest love we know between human beings when it is operating out of a mother's heart as intended. That's pretty cool to this guy.
There is also a banner above the hands that reads "In His Hands" - because we are all in God's hands, all the time, even though it doesn't always feel like it, God's always "holding us down" - just like gravity - whether we're aware of it or not.
AND so what I got added today was a banner above the dove that says "Vaya con Dios" which means "Go with God" in Spanish - AND in the stain-glass portion of the tattoo, encasing the cloud, the dove, and the cross I got the 9 attributes that constitute the Fruit of the Spirit: Joy (the red lipped smile), Peace (the peace sign), Patience (the turtle), Self control (the samurai sword) , Kindness (puzzle piece), Faithfulness (dog ... I know cats aren't!), Gentleness (teddy bear), Goodness (a thumbs up) ... and Love ... was already there ... because again, that's not just an attribute, that's what God IS in God's very essence (from what I've experienced). And so that's my right arm:
(2) My left arm represents Loving People and so - from top to bottom:
The top and bottom banner read: "We're all equal" (top banner) - "As God's children" (bottom banner).
The stain glass in the middle: The "EP" stands for "every person", and, starting at the top of the stain glass and going clockwise - the red hoody represents clothing, the bee represents food and pollination, the blue water jug represents water, and the chess piece represents knowledge.
Because EVERY PERSON deserves clothing, food, water, and knowledge and they deserve to "seize it all" (Carpe Omnia Latin banner in the middle).
I am really grateful I lived long enough to allow God to complete these tattoos from my FIRST RATE tattoo artist - David Boisineau at Absolute Art in Richmond, VA.
It's gotten to the point now where I would not get work done by anyone, unless it was David - so I have never been good at art, but I'm happy to be a canvas to such a great artist.
Thank you David - appreciate you and your work more than I could ever put into words.
So ... my tattoos are finished ... and so am I for awhile ...
I'm going to try to focus on my new jobs for awhile, finish my "pre-writing" reading list ... and then start writing again - a story I want to complete (only about a third of the way done of a rough draft right now) if God wills it.
But I am going to try to take a break from posting and blogging for a while.
If I get back on Twitter though - I am going to again refocus on sharing other people's things - I got "love bit" by someone for about the past 7 months (like real "love bit" - not the fun and poppy emotional kind, and not the sappy girl crushy kind I've felt before ... but the painful and heart wrenching and soul purging kind ... the real thing ... never thought that was going to happen, but it has, so I am dealing with it the best I can...) - but I will again keep her to myself as the star in the sky of my heart - my "musa ultimum" and spare the rest of the world from that part of myself for awhile.
Just know dear heart that God has chosen to give my heart to you for you to take or leave as you see fit - and it will be yours to take or leave as long as I'm on this earth to give it from near or afar - giving my love always ONLY in whatever ways are best for you.
THAT being said - when it comes to romantic love from me ... it may be best from afar for any woman.
I'm like a popsicle - good from a "cool" and distant place - but will melt in your hand, and make a mess in it - if you hold it too long.
Or a firecracker, a good show from a distance - but a Grade A missile from too close a proximity.
I'm like a burning building, get the light from me while you can, but the building is going down...just because the yard looks good from the street, doesn't mean there isn't a good amount of dog poo in the grass...in a nutshell...I have more baggage than an airport terminal.
What I am trying to say is...I love you. And because I love you I want what's best for you. And I am not convinced that I am what's best for you.
But if you do ever need me, I will always "meet you half way" in any way I can, as long as God gives me a breath and a will on the blue and green speck we call "home for now".
And that's all the blues there are to play from my end about all that jazz.
ANYWAYYYY ... NOW MOVING ON ...
For everybody ELSE, ANY ONE reading this - brother or sister of humanity - whoever is reading this - know that I am loving, praying, and hoping only God's best for you always AS always - one day, one breath at a time as we all just keep throwing coal in our own ways to keep the train of this world on track with goodness, and truth, and love - which the world needs now more than ever.
To each and every person who reads this: You are vital to this world. You are the only you that will ever exist, and are the only one in the places to touch the people around you God has put in your path.
Love where and when you can, however you can now, in little ways - little things make the big things ... just ask a pizza ... but your love is always needed by someone (including loving yourself when needed) - in some way - all the time. I promise.
Just know that "when I'm dreaming, you know I'm gonna dream, I'm gonna dream about the time when I'm with you [THE PROCLAIMERS]" and praying for and loving ALL OF YOU - all the people of the world - as often as I can. One and all.
Love, forever and a day,