And the start to this new year has been pretty rough as well.
I don't know about you all, but for me personally, I had more ups and downs in that one year, then I have had in my whole life - both personally - and, in dealing with and soaking in world events that we are all having to deal with.
And I could go into so many things.
(..."more issues than VOGUE" with this dude - courtesy of my HolyCrap daily calendar - really enjoying that right now).
But I am not going to.
The past is good to look back on and reflect on, but forward is the way we all need to go.
Life is like quicksand, no matter how slow you're trudging through it sometimes, you have to keep moving forward, or you are going to start to sink (...I know that has always been the case for me anyway).
So here are some ways I plan on moving forward:
(1) I applied for grad-school for Mental Health Counseling. I really hope I get in, but if not, for whatever reason this application cycle, I will plan to keep trying until I do.
(2) I would like to get some more tattoos. Now I don't know when or if this will even happen - but I do have some more ideas on this front, that I think would turn out pretty cool if I get a chance to do them, so we'll see. Maybe I will post pictures if I ever do get them done. I donno - my eyes are bigger than my stomach on this one right now.
(3) Writing: I know I said in a previous post that I think I had two more 'bug books in me', but I have since decided that it would be a stronger book if I combined it into just one story. So that is the story I am working on now.
I am not like Mr. Stephen King, and do not have the capacity, talent, or stamina to churn out books and stories like pancakes at an IHOP (...wish I did sometimes).
And I am also not (...nor will anyone ever again quite be - I believe) a Mrs. J.K. Rowling ... there aren't going to be 7 of these little 'bugger' books (...that's best for everyone's sake I'm sure).
I actually thought I was going to be done after the 1st one ... but there is some 'clean-up' work to do in terms of story.
As far as my writing goes from here, after this other bug story (Providence willing me finishing that), I am going to take a big break from writing.
I do have a few small ideas, but I don't know how good they would be.
But there is one big story and idea ... that I really hope I get a chance to write one day ... but it will be YEARS in the making ... I need to live and learn a lot more life before tackling that one, so we'll see.
In the meantime, I thought I would just give a quick sample of what I have been working on, and here's hoping I get a chance to finish it.
If I do, I haven't decided how I am going to distribute it yet.
I used BookBaby self-publishing for the 1st one, but that was pretty pricey, and we'll just see how things go ... writing the thing is the 1st part anyway so ... going to take my own advice and "stay in my headlights" on that one.
Anyway, here is the quick sample and excerpt from one part of the story I am currently working on:
"The Sun was low and setting … then a piece of it started moving towards J.P.P. – closer – and closer – until it took a familiar form of golden yellow, and mocha striped six-leggedness … eyes and a smile that could save the world, that had saved the world, came into clarity.
J.P.P. had no idea if what she was witnessing was real or a dream, but her little buggin' heart was pounding regardless.
The form moving towards the leggy little lady was topped with a familiar blue antennae band, that kept them dangling, neatly atop her heart shaped head.
A new addition sat above The Queen of the Hiveyan Palace’s head as she emerged into sight … a halo … which J.P.P. always assumed she had possessed even on this side of the Great Meadow, but had always been too modest to flaunt.
The halo was almost as golden and pure … as the one in the Queen’s heart which had always resided there … since the bugginning ... and forever would reside there, no flappin' what ... J.P.P. McLeggins was certain of that."
That is just one sample, of one small part of the story; one of my more developed parts for now, but just wanted to let everyone know I did have something rolling along.
So like I said, it is my belief that we have to 'keep on scuttling on', even though it's going to be hard, even though we are all tired, we can do it - if we believe, love, and are there for each other - in whatever ways are best - for each other.
Let's at least give it our best shot, the world needs it :)
I am going to try to take my own advice from the good Queen Bee in the 1st book: "Be the best you, let the Producer carry you through, and that's all anybuggy can do."
We all need to take that to heart I believe (...myself to the utmost).
So keep scuttlin', flappin', and crawling along everybuggy in your own ways, and with your own bugdeavors!
I know I am going to do my best to provide more honey than sting going forward, and I hope you do too.
Time is always shorter than you think, so make the most of it while you can, we all need to remember that as well.
Just know ... whoever you are ... wherever you are ... we're all in this together.
No matter what you are going through. You are not alone, and you never will be.
Take care, and BugSpeed to all (...and bug puns and prefixes ennnnnnnnnnnnd .... now ... I need a break ... or more coffee ... or both) -- all my love -- Kozy